I felt very bad about myself because of my weight, even though I know a lot of it is water weight. I don’t know why I’m retaining so much water right now. Well, it could be PMS I suppose. Well whatever it is it made me feel terrible.

I went to work (second job) and got very dizzy, like almost seeing double. I have that reaction when I take too much lamictal at one time. I can only take 100mg in the morning, if I take 200mg this is what happens. So I have to wonder if I dropped an extra pill in Saturday’s space. I didn’t take the 200mg I usually take at night just to be sure. I felt fine by like 7pm so I know it was definitely that. I did have RS come and pick me up at 5:30 from work just so I could be safe getting home, I didn’t want to take the chance driving.

Today though was a great day. I felt better and we decided to go to cape may in NJ. Very far ride for us but there is a lot to do there. We went on a nature walk, which spits you out on the beach and you have to walk along the beach for the last half a mile or so to get back to the parking lot. I dressed inappropriately for the weather, I wasn’t sure if there would be a cool see breeze so I wore pants and forgot about the blazing sun on the beach part so I wore a black shirt as well. AND didn’t bring water AND didn’t put sunscreen on. Totally unprepared which is unusual for me knowing how I get overheated easily due to haldol. At least RS had a little water. But we made it and he got me and CR Italian ices at the end. My stomach was upset though and I’m sure it was from getting overheated. It’s upset a bit now as well so I’m laying in our cool bedroom with Gatorade close by. Found these new Gatorade Fit waters that actually don’t have added sugar and are sweetened with stevia and fruit essence. All sounds good I guess and they’re quite tasty, not too sweet and not too “diet” tasting.

We also played mini golf and RS almost got a hole in one but it sat right one the edge! And CR really did get a hole in one, he was very excited! Me, well, let’s just say I’m not entering any tournaments any time soon

Somehow I don’t have to work tomorrow so we’re going to have a small cookout with RS’s parents and possibly my mom, although she did say she’ll “see how she feels” which normally means she’s too polite to say no outright. That’s fine though, I never really expect her to come, just want her to know we’re thinking of her. Im looking forward to the extra garlic kielbasa we got from the polish meat market. It’s delicious!