Oops, I saw your other thread before seeing this one. Now I know where that picture is coming from. Your hurt and pain comes through so clearly. But I can still see hope in you. It doesn't feel like you want to give up, and I think you do know that T still cares about you.

I have to agree with what ErinBear said about how working through disruptions like this can deepen and strengthen the therapeutic relationship, and in the end help you to heal. I hope for that to happen for you.

When I was just starting therapy with my current T, I told her that I had a history of running away from therapy, and that I might just disappear, never schedule another appointment. I told her that I wanted her to find me and bring me back when I did that. Guess what she said? She explained that if I disappeared like that, she would let me go. I wanted a safety net, and she wouldn't give it to me. It is your right to quit therapy, and wouldn't be ethical for T to come chasing after you. You have all the power. You can disappear and leave him hanging and wondering about you if you want to. He will have to pack it up and move on. But if that isn't what you want to do, then I hope that you will take the power upon yourself to make another choice. It might be hard to call and make another appointment. But you don't have to explain when you call. You can act like nothing happened if you want to. The power and the choice are entirely yours.

I hope it works out for you, and I hope you can see the hope and the potential that you have, and that I can see in you.