I'm sleeping 0-4 hours a night, been a bit too impulsive with the drugs/alcohol (but nothing super wild like whenever tf I did that meth binge), and hypersexual. I'm okay with telling her I'm not sleeping, but idk how she'll react to "my mind is super loud and fast and chaotic so I've been drinking and using opiates and also I can't control myself and my boyfriend is a d**k so I cheated on him."

I don't even feel manic this is just my normal now.