Well, it seems I've yet again ran into problems. I'm doing my best to handle it the best I can but honestly I'm kind of freaking out on the inside about it. I'm doing all I can to stay calm, and at least those involved are being courteous, helpful and respectful. I saw my doctor on Friday via telehealth. He is rather oldschool and won't make his own appointments, so I have to call the clinic to schedule another appointment. Only one person is allowed to make his appointments apparently, his secretary. She was busy and was supposed to call me back on Friday but did not. Monday was a holiday so I needed to get a hold of them today to get that squared away. That's really issue two though, I'll come back to that in a second.

I called my pharmacy to have my Adderall filled and I was planning to pick up all my medicines today. Because of a dosage change, there is a prior authorization required. What's worse is that no one accounted for this and as of today, I am out of medicine. My doctor future dates my prescriptions to be picked up exactly 30 days after the previous. My pharmacy suggested I call my clinic and see if I could get them to get that in. It's a tossup to when it can be approved 1-72 hours. Backup to problem number two.

I knew this was going to be an issue, I had been calling the clinic since they opened at 9AM and no answer. Finally, after call number 76 (no joke...) someone answers, I wait for about 30 minutes, and around noon someone solved my appointment problem and told me they sent in the PA right then, and to give it a few hours.

I called my insurance to ask about it, if they had it, or if it could be expedited because I do need my medicine -- they haven't received anything. I'm not entirely freaking out about that because I've worked in a call center before, I know they delegate work. The person I talked to probably can't see anything more than what I can see from the website they instructed me to use in the automated portion of the call. They aren't over approval, or review, or incoming PAs. My pharmacy said they'd try to run the insurance after lunch (thats 2pm for them), and let me know.

I know it sounds stupid but I really hate the idea of going without medicine. I've already missed my morning dose and my evening dose is supposed to be 3PM. So, here is to day one without medicine. I really don't have the money to pay out of pocket, so I'm just going to have to go without I guess until the PA is approved. Here's to hoping it's sooner than later. Here's to hoping I can pick it up today and not have to go without. Here's to hoping....

Adderall isn't a core drug I have to have in the grand scheme of things -- it's a quality of life improvement drug for me, but it's not my core mood stability drug. I'm going to be OK in the end. I missed a day's worth of Adderall on a trip and I know I'll have some side effects-- specifically excessive sleepiness... but maybe it'll help the time pass. I know I'm complaining about something rather trivial. Like I said -- my mood stabilizing drugs I can pick up no problem. I should just be grateful for that much.

Repeating myself for the 4th time.. here's to hoping.