That all sounds really hard Echoes. It sounds like she wasn't really hearing you or your pain and how her actions may have been contributing to that. I had a T make some big life changes once and from my perspective at least handled it pretty badly. Forgot some big and important things in our therapy which caused a lot of pain for me and got very defensive when I tried to address it. I never did get an apology but a while later she did acknowledge that she might have been overwhelmed. I'm not saying it's the case for your T and not defending actions as I don't know. Perhaps she is feeling overwhelmed with retiring which is resulting with her not being at her best or even remotely okay for you. Either way it sounds like very much her own stuff and it is having a terrible impact on you and it sounds really hard. I hope your next /last? appointment goes as you want it to.