I don't know how I feel right now towards my husband. After I posted my initial post on this thread, we had a fight - this was on Monday morning, Divorce came up, and we each thought that the other wants a divorce. I came very close to calling it quits. In the heat of the moment, he insinuated that I am crazy and psychotic, which was beyond insulting. I told him that every time he is overly stressed about something, we fight, and I said that I am not the one creating or escalating things into a fight - he is. I told him he has got to work on himself in therapy, and to bring this issue to the therapist to work on. The fight started because he barked at me over changing the temperature of the air conditioner.

He had his individual therapy last night and I didn't feel like pushing his buttons by asking how it went or what they discussed. He is very edgy right now about his sick mother. Anything else I say that is a hot button will push him over the edge.

I am back in a place where I am questioning my marriage all over again. I can't keep going through this with him. Things are great as long as there is little stress. But when the stress piles on, things become bad. We also are not intimate when life is too stressful. I am missing having sex. Ours has been very sporadic over the last several months.

And because of his sick elderly parents, there has been a ton of stress around this for years now. I am sick of going through stressful times.

He hugged and kissed me goodbye this morning, and I barely felt anything towards him. I wonder if my love for him is waning. I really don't know how I feel, but I am not happy right now.

I think honestly that the next fight he creates with me, I am calling it quits.