I’m HATING the haldol side effects. My whole mouth is like vibrating it feels and I’m worried it will become permanent. I’m also starting to just keep my jaw slack and my mouth open when I’m not thinking about it and I feel I must look stupid. “Curse you for breathing you slack jawed idiot” comes to mind, a line from the first pirates of the Caribbean movie.

But what can I do? There’s nothing else that works except Zyprexa and I gained ten pounds in one month on that! I’m already significantly overweight, I really can’t gain another 50lbs. I mean I could try abilify but I don’t know how good it is for an AP instead of just an add on for managing depression.

Besides, I can’t do anything until I find a new pdoc. Turns out my old one works for a group that doesn’t accept my new insurance. They are strictly out of network with all insurance companies and I don’t have out of network benefits. Uuugh it’s almost impossible to find a good pdoc.