You're in my thoughts today. Like others have said, take care of yourself. I lost a brother in 2006, and I still have a hard time come holidays, birthdays and of course the day he died. I can only imagine what it's like to lose a parent. I mention it only to say that, like Soupe said, time passed doesn't really matter in the grand scheme of things. It's hard to lose close loved ones, especially a parent. For what its worth, and I know I offer little, I admire reading your posts and seeing how far you've come and all you have accomplished. You've overcome so much and it's inspiring. Without a doubt I think your dad would be so proud of you.

I'm sending good thoughts and vibes your way. I hope that as you go through your day, you can find a least some moments of relative peace.