Whew my new job is exhausting! There’s three non verbal kids, one of whom is a runner, so that’s fun. And then the three other kids need high support still but are verbal. One is on level academically with his peers and might be able to make it in an inclusion classroom but he’s with us for now. He’s so cute, he has an identical twin and they where the same clothes and hairstyles so it’s near impossible to tell them apart! Another has violent meltdowns, however, mostly when he’s not allowed to do what he wants immediately. I don’t think he has a sense of time so he can’t tell the difference between “right now” and “later”, thinking later means never. He got very destructive today, we had to evacuate the rest of the class so he wouldn’t hurt any of them.

But still, it doesn’t upset me (except I don’t want to hurt my back if he turns on me) because it’s autism, not just a ****** attitude. I dunno, there’s just a difference in my head, even though there were plenty of autistic kids at my old school. My mindset is just different.

I exercised today after work. 15 mins on elliptical and 15 on the treadmill. I can’t do much more on the elliptical right now, got to slowly work back into it and always end with a short walk on the treadmill to loosen my back.

My hip is giving me trouble as well I’m thinking I should make an orthopedic appt but it would have to be on Saturday because I definitely can’t take off yet with my job. Going to try to make it 90 days because that’s what my probation period is.

I woke up with a nightmare at midnight that I can’t figure out. It’s not one of my usual ones, but it upset me.

Ah well hopefully I’ll sleep through tonight.