I am facing the grim reality of a very likely divorce and I am pretty depressed about it. This is not what I wanted. This is what I have been trying to avoid all this time, but he's not living up to his promises - repeatedly he is making the same mistakes and he is not growing OR learning.

I have one foot out the door right now. I know he is going to mess up again and will insult or demean me again. It's happened in every fight since we got back together - why would it change now?

This is very upsetting. I should have known better than to think he could actually change.