For a very long time I've experienced pain because I wanted something so much then I realised my limitations and felt absolutely stuck and powerless. It sucks people telling you, you can't be this because of lacking concentration. It makes me sad everyday because I have ADD because then I have to think about jobs that don't require concentration and then I still have people tell me with the few options left that I can't do it because that requires concentration. So in the end you just suffer because of other people's opinions that you then doubt yourself. People will always tell you the problems but they will never be realistic about what could go right and frankly I'm sick of listening to other people's black and white thinking. Sadly there will be a point where I'll have to hide what I'm studying in the future because I don't want to hear people tell me I can't do that. Coz honestly so far that's all I've ever heard. I just wish I heard all I could do right. Then I realised it's not my issue to change peoples opinions or thoughts of me but I have to change my own thoughts of me. Anyway, there no better than the teachers that kicked me out for a little bit of attention issues. People see people struggling and like to point out the flaws rather than help. I guess things like that make me desire even more to be a nurse and shine hope on people. To me I will always regret not trying because of others but they will never regret sticking there nose in things that don't concern them. Also I need to stop obsessing about the future none of this written. In the end forgetting your wants is what frees you to live in the now which is always hope and love.