Trusting family for over 20 years. And then while and during this time, learning to trust others as well. And when family is gone being alone with the others that you spent another 20 years with having trusted each day of the way. So 40 years being built on trust; first half with family, the second half with God and Church and even by self with The Lord. And then when all is gone, family and support, you have only the last ones you lived with trust with. Add another 10 years to these years and you have 50 years lived trying to feel safe trusting the ones you were given in this life. And so when those you trusted seem to test or seem to not meet 'trust' standards, the question of this thread; can a life really be wasted, becomes strangely painful.

The first half is gone having left some wounds. The second half is wounding. And the fear with the second is worse because 'family' is not around to receive support from. When family saw your fear, they tried to reassure. The second. My goodness. How fearful it can become...