Your work place doesn't seem very conducive to a person's wellbeing.

Wish I had some good advice to offer but I was in a toxic work environment and only retirement spared me lifelong misery.

Of course retirement isn't an option in most circumstances.

I follow your posts and know that your workplace is a real thorn in your side. Sorry I do not know how to be helpful. My heart goes out to you as you navigate the unhappy terrain this joyless, tiresome and distressing environment ! ! ! Yao Wen