I think what you need is to have a presence that can listen and allow you to feel. If you are in a relationship where the other person can’t respect your feelings and it’s all about their needs then you never feel heard and you begin to feel like your emotional needs are a burden and often the conversation becomes a competition and the partner always has to win and throws your faults out as if you are asking them to have to give in.

It sounds like you have been dealing with a narcissistic person and they really can’t be bothered with how you feel. You are there for their needs and to feed their ego. And often this kind of person is not satisfied and needs more than just one source of ego feed. They don’t really love or care or respect your feelings. And it’s not unusual for them to already have their next partner in the picture. And often they get a feed on the internet too trying to attract attention to themselves.

This is not something you can ever change. If you look back on this relationship you will probably see the red flags that was going to lead to where you are now. You are not the only one facing this kind of reality. It’s not your fault that she is this way.