I think I feel anxious now because you said we could try to drop the scales for a while. Perhaps it feels like a step towards termination and I am reacting badly to that feeling, because this is a very unique relationship and I genuinley benefit from it and even enjoy talking to you. With whom can I be honest like I can with you? Of whom would I accept conditions like the scales if not of someone I have a contract with? Who could see past all that stuff to drop the scales within a year? Of course, perhaps, a different T. But I would assume when we terminate, I am done with therapy, at least for a significant amount of time. Honestly, I thought I'd be doing them until forever abruptly ends.