What you say makes a lot of sense to me, Mouse. A lot of my "old" ways of doing things, old defenses and self-soothing behaviors I learned as a very young child kind of "went away" as I went through therapy (things I was "complaining" about when I began therapy) and sometimes it's almost disorienting to figure out what I'm supposed to do "next" instead of that behavior that was so familiar. It almost feels like I'm being "driven" forward by therapy and the whole "maturation" process.