Thank you @TheGal.

Those are all great suggestions. Right now, it's hard to even get up and go to work each morning though. It's a chore. I do write sometimes and I call my friends and family sometimes. That can help. I am also working on my goal to lose weight, which is very slow going and frustrating.

I'm just not in a good place right now and everything feels really really hard. Getting up to go to work is very hard each day.

And, I know this sounds terrible, but I need for my dad's service to be over. It has been hanging over us since June and it's all we talk about. It keeps his death very much alive and present all the time. I need to be able to move on and past this. For myself.