((((( wise ))))) i am soo sorry you are going through a tough time right now, but rem and kimmy are right, things will get better. no matter how dark things look, light will come soon. you are doing all that you can, and that is the most anyone can do. you are a good person who is doing all she can, never forget that.

i hope things get better for you soon. you are stronger than you give yourself
credit for. you will get through.
take care, and remember you have so many here willing to be a shoulder, punching bag, sound board, whatever.
grace