Thanks, Jello. I keep trying to tell myself T's rejection is just my misperception, but it's not working too well. I go from crying to being angry. He usually answers my emails, and this week, no replies. Plus, I opened up more than I ever have this week, after 14 mos. with T, and I'm scared to death. I don't typically wait around when I feel unwanted and I"m so tempted to just quit.
It's so reassuring to hear other people have/do feel similarly and that I''m not a TOTAL freak.