i cant stand too long... which adds to the anxiety... its like a timer : buy your food in under 30 minutes or suffer unbearable pain! BBBBBZZZZZZTTTT

i have had food turn to liquid - untouched and unopened. i can't afford that. If i buy something i dont "feel" good about.. then its a total waster... then again, i buy all sorts of well-intended veggies (hence the liquified salad greens)

ive been trying so hard... buying little snack foods so i dont get freaked out by a whole meal... i have to eat reduced carbs due to sugar problems so i bought toasted almonds and i eat maybe 4 of them... i buy strawberries and grapes... i buy strawberry soy milk... and i do always get tomato and cucumber - thats something, right?

i learned a new trick too.... i made a crustless quiche and immediately got upset at the thought of a plate of food... so i put it in the fridge and i just pick at it. It's good cold too.

maybe i'd do a lot better by noshing on small things here and there... ?

then again.... by late in the day i started thinking about all the little bits of food i'd had during the day... and... well.. you know what happened next. *sigh