Scout33... I think when you have the kind of childhood you had it's natural to want to
really "brake out" so to speak. I sense that your torn between living the life ,
you are living , but feel you are missing more than just socializing. I'm sure you
love your husband and family but need to do more for YOURSELF. It 's hard to
self realize when most of the time your taking care of your family . For some ,
this gives them all their need , for others , like you , it's just not enough.