Thanks everyone for your caring and support.

We’re now back in the honeymoon phase and all is good again. When he’s this way, I want to stay with him. When he’s not, I want to leave him. Right now I feel kind of stuck in the middle again. But then when he’s in a mood again, I’ll want to leave him. A vicious cycle.

I know our therapy is far from ideal. He did seem motivated before and I think that’s waning. I am only just guessing that he only makes chit chat with the therapist. That’s what I’ve witnessed in our couples sessions at least. And yes, I think he has charmed the therapist. The therapist doesn’t witness how my husband truly is. And he hides it from the therapist I do believe.

And yes, it totally sucks that this is all happening around my dad’s service. I have to be strong and keep my head about me.

Oh man, this is so hard.