((((((((((Jacq)))))))))))
It hurts being away from those we love... heck, I was only gone for a month and I desperately missed my friends out here.
You do not have an ego problem my friend... it's simply natural, you want what they have. That's not ego. We all want people around us that give us almost (or complete) unconditional love and acceptance.
Can you ask your aunt for a hug on occassion? Maybe she's not sure how to act around you, and if she knows that you need some (positive) attention, that she'll be willing to do it? I'm sure she does love you.
I'm glad your little cousin told you that she loves you. Kids are so great for just instinctually knowing when we need someone to give us a hug.
(((((((((((((JACQ))))))))))))))) I'm sorry you're so far away from people who love you. I hope you manage to hold onto whatever good feelings you have right now, and make it through this. I know you can do this.
Breathe. Love ya