So sorry that you are going though this @Forest33.

Sometimes, if not more often than not, our families can be our biggest sources of pain.

You need to not only get angry about it, but grieve the loss... however, it sounds like you've done a lot of that already.

How about trying to focus on caring for yourself first and doing a needs assessment? Once you identify your needs you can start finding ways to get them met in a healthy way.

With time, you can create your own family of friends... you need to find your niche.

Coming on this forum is a good first step.

Sending you good vibes...