Yesterday and today I had some "moments." I went for a hike and almost cried. This afternoon, the same.

I remember how not once, in the years we've been married, when I would cry did he ever console me. My ex-husband did. There's got to be something wrong with a person that when you are sad, have a bad day, are going through a rough patch, that your significant other does not support you emotionally. I so miss and long for someone to be there for me. And given that I know people who have not found someone, I get depressed.

Am already in my 40s. For as hard as I've worked hard to be a good person, do the right thing, etc.... I ponder where did I go wrong. I wanted a family and a stable life. Instead, working on divorce #2 and at my age, a family is certainly out of the question. I don't have friends nor family close by - they are all in different time zones.

Life can suck sometimes.