Someone was asking me about if I'd need a extra help like a support worker say if I am in a relationship because I can't do things. It just makes me think is it really that bad that I struggle with doing tasks maybe a part of me is indenial. Them saying I can't live a normal life like a women is super triggering so I told them I can't convince people of my worth. Also I'm not physically disabled but then saying all this stuff makes me question my mental capabilities and maybe makes me think my issues with planning and doing tasks is more of an issue then I thought. My psychiatrist asked if I wanted treatment for ADHD but I said no as the tablets didn't work in the past. Now I'm a curious more then ever about that IQ test maybe that's the answer but in saying all that it is very upsetting that people think I can't have a normal life and need support. I know it's not my issue but it's just brought back those feelings of helpless of needing extra help at school because of mistakes I make because of lack of concentration. All of this is just upsetting to me it does leave me fearful but it also frustrates me at the lack of management for my condition left me feeling this way. Also them saying that 15 years Olds have mastered these skills but nevermind them. I'm not physically disabled so mentally things can recover in terms of what I can do I have no idea.
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