To your Self!

Sometimes, this is important

If you don`t give yourslef time off, you may find yourself in a worse place you started. It can be quite dangerous to your mental condition.
I know

Form experience. I know it all too well.

You are SCARED. You don`t feel it`s o.k.

You think you can make it and others encourage you "Just give it one more push...gather all your strength right now.. and MAKE IT! I know you CAN"
.strength you do not have. think you feel you can`t do.

So you carry on. You believe them and live this illusion. Without understanding how , you are getting %#@&#! up. You don`t succeed. And others tell you "common dude there is no time you need to catch up hurry hurry hurry!"

And you .

You soul cries out. You feel the stress. The fear The "What`s wrong with me" and you try again and again and nothing turnes out.

Time seems to pass too fast. Way too fast. You are not concentrated any more. You ferget things all the time, you don`t rememenr what you have to do next. You mind is not there.............

In the end you get angry. You get frustrated. You say %#@&#! YOU ALL nice people i don`t care about my success! I don`t give a damn any more. I need MYSELF I forgot i have ever been alive! I feel like i am drowning. Like I try to breath air but only water kicks in and i CHOKE And I go down.

Down.

Down.

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There is no chance i am letting that happen to me.Not again.
No thanks !
Last time, believe me, I had enough.

Yeah this is what my T told me. She couldn`t talk for long but she told me i need to relax and release the tenssion.

I guess this is what i am doing right now

quiet. My peace. There is no one but Me here right now. There is nothing i have to do.

Love you all my friends!