Hey. I guess I haven't focused on the good times, here. There were good times, though.

What is hard is that I really really liked him. And then he told me he wanted to date other people. And I wasn't okay with that at all. Basically... I really cared for him and wasn't happy with him dating other people. I asked if he was trying to break up with me and he was like 'no, I hadn't thought of it like that'.

The thing is that we are going to be in the same place for a time. 9 months. And I could see that it would only be too easy for us to start hanging out again... But then at the end of our time together... What would happen then?

I'm not prepared to get deeply attached to him if he is likely to want to date other people at the end of our time together. So... It is important to me to know why, yeah.

I know it isn't terribly spontaneous... But without an understanding why... It is just terribly confusing is all. I could accept if he wasn't sexually attracted to me and just wanted to be friends. But he said that isn't it... He doesn't seem to know why... So neither do I... But it makes me feel a little wary, yeah.

No expectations is a wonderful thing... But it is unrealistic for things to be like that when things get to the point of commitment and building families etc etc. I don't know that I'm ready for a family... He laments that he hasn't got one yet... I'm looking for a life partner. I'm over the 'floating around and seeing what happens' thing...