I’m not expecting you to answer this but I’m assuming one of the possibilities is borderline personality disorder. Just saying if you don’t feel this fits don’t let them label you with this. Just because meds don’t work for you the way they work for others doesn’t mean you don’t have bipolar. They like to label “difficult” cases and ones who don’t fit nicely into their baskets / expectations as borderlines. I’ve seen how some health professionals treat borderlines and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. Of course if that is in fact what you have then knowledge is power and can help you get treatment. Just don’t let them give you a label because you don’t fit into their neat little boxes.