So, I called the SSI/Disability lawyers yesterday morning for an update. They had none when I called, but I received an email from Social Security about a change in status last night and I'm nervous to open it and see. I'm used to bad results. I'm so used to having to fight any agency tooth and nail for any kind of help or (Let's be fair.) dignity, my mind can't picture any kind of change. I'll call the lawyers again later this morning. I'd rather have a friendly face (or someone in my corner, at least) deliver the news and advise me on next steps.
My mom is asking me to play chauffeur this morning, which an unusual development for recent days. A lot of it is normal errands and tasks for her, but there is something involving her personal finances and my dad that is not sitting right with me. Remember my dad deciding I needed to pay him back for money freely given to help cover vehicle costs because he felt spited? I hope I'm wrong, but I'm sensing that same dynamic with the two of them involving a much larger sum of money. Money he definitely has, but she can't really afford to lose. We'll see in a couple of hours.
On a personal note, I've got my MRI scheduled for this time next week. My hope is that the scan will either find no problems or problems that can be easily addressed. Either/or I'll take.
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"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
-Litany Against Fear (Dune)
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