Ugh. I actually called my T yesterday morning and left a message saying how I was feeling - I was in a bad spot and just wanted to get it out. I didn't know whether to ask for him to call me back, since it was Saturday. I told him on the message I'm not sure what the rules are on the weekend. Then I called back later and asked him if he could just leave a short message on my voicemail, so I could have that point of connection with him.

He hasn't called. For all I know, he's out of town and hasn't checked his messages. Or maybe he checked and doesn't want to wear his therapist hat on the weekends. I've asked him before what the "rules" are, and he's told me that I can call his voice mail and/or e-mail as many times a day as I want/need to. He seems to really mean that. He says he will respond IF I ask him to specifically. I try not to ask, because I find the wait excruciating. And he's made it clear that sometimes he won't be able to get back to me right away for one reason or another and I'm not supposed to get all freaked out about it.

But of course, that doesn't make it any easier not to feel kind of freaked out. Ugh, therapy.