I woke up this morning feeling great. I slept great last night. I worked out at 5:30. I didn't do my abs though. Ignored the news. I went to Sonic. I had therapy and I froze. I don't know why. I know I can't take my Prestiq before the sessions. I didn't have my hat on for once. My hat is my secuirty and I felt super awkward without it and I wasn't able to concentrate very well. But I know I can't wear it if I'm working so I better start not wearing it in therapy first. I have trouble making eye contact with her now that she is pregnant and I'm not sure if she notices or not. I know she commented before that I had great eye contact. Then the second she told me she was pregnant my eye contact just evaporated. Idk. Today was just awkward and it was totally me and not her. It was like my selective mutisim from kindergarten had come back or something. When I came out of the office I realized I was quite nauseated. I came home and took my prestiq and gastro med and then emailed my doctor so he could tell me about the results from my allergy test. But yeah it was a weird session. I meant to tell her about my bad urinary retention. I'm still having trouble going. Thinking I need to go but can't. Wanting to go but not being able to go. Not being able to go all the way. Its been frustrating. I also meant to tell her about the advil and hematrcrit and kidney issues. Basically I had planned on spilling my guts but just ended up looking like boo boo the fool the entire session.