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Sep 21, 2022, 08:37 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
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I'm finally checking in. Seems like it's been a long time for some reason.
I'm totally off the Luvox. No more nausea, and body aches are not too bad, not at all what they were. Some "brain zaps" but they're also lessening a lot. The (I'll be frank) diarrhea stopped for a whole day with 1 dose of Imodium. It's (so far) not as bad as it was. I had blood labs done today and have to do a (I'll be frank) stool sample.
I just hope and pray this entire stomach thing is due to medication. I am so, so frightened to be truly sick because I have no one in the entire world to take care of my cats, no one to take care of me. But especially my cats. People get taken care of, somehow.
David will take out my garbage, bring in my mail, give me rides (usually), and do some grocery shopping. He'll bring heavier items up from my car. I honestly can't think of anything else. Oh - after I had achilles surgery he did my laundry, and he was actually kind about it. I so appreciated that. God forbid I have to be in the hospital, forget it.
When our children were born he managed to make it into the hospital to see the baby and I (I was in for a week each time) just before visiting hours ended. I kept telling myself that at least he was showing up every night. My family were "making comments" and I was sooo embarrassed, because...they were correct.
I get that he has mental health problems. I know that and I feel so bad for him. But...somehow he does manage to do what he really, really wants to do. I have worked very hard for 4 decades not to be bitter, but to have faith in the Universe and keep love alive in my life. It's a daily job.
I'm sorry, I'm really venting. I'm trying to calm down, but I'm so anxious. Scared.
I have a therapy session tomorrow, then med dude. I'm angry at the clinic where med dude is. When I kept calling them for an earlier appointment they should have listened to me and it was flat-out irresponsible that they didn't. It's the same receptionist and I'm going to complain about her. The other 2 are kinder. I'm going to tell him that before he rags on me for changing meds on my own.
Well, we had almost TWO days of rain storms! Like AC/DC: THUN-DAH 
The humidity was up, though. That's another new climate thing here...humidity. But, the 70's. I knew the temperature would creep back up into the 80's, though. Nah. By next week it'll be in the 90's! We'll be going into another October with hot days. Autumn begins tomorrow, though!
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