I know you are experiencing a lot of emotions and stress. There's a lot of life going on for you at the moment, both good and bad.. And that always makes things much harder to deal with.

I don't always understand other people's perspectives and feel judged too. Unfortunately, we don't get to choose the support we receive from others. Sometimes the best we can do is accept that other people aren't living our lives and they will say things differently than we want.

I think people here are worried about you because things are so chaotic for you. Sometimes it seems like you just want validation for how you feel and sometimes it seems you want feedback on how others would handle things. And if someone would do things differently than you would, you may feel invalidated and unfairly judged.

In the end, all that matters is that your choices are yours. You have to live with your choices. What anyone else thinks or does is irrelevant. There is no greater feeling than finding happiness for yourself. I hope your choices bring you to your happiness.