Thanks EM. I wasn’t going to talk to trauma T about this, or if i was i was going to describe the situation in the vaguest terms. But I’ve calmed down a little bit. My T said she said it makes sense on why I wouldn’t want to do phone sessions, she said she wouldn’t want to either.

She also said she isn’t repulsed (my word) by my big feelings of wanting to be nurtured. even though I told her that the want runs deep and holds strong.

so, we shall see. I still don’t feel great about this, mainly because of all the feelings this kicked up.