One of the things that can help with intimacy is feeling the intimacy and then some distance and then some intimacy and then some distance over and over and over again. If I feel connected to my therapist and then I take a risk I get really scared that I'll have said something irrevocable which means that we can't have that connection anymore. So sometimes when the intimacy is going well I'm more scared of telling him stuff because I'm more afraid of damaging that.

I also freak out a little when things feel too intimate, though. Kind of like how the other poster would share stuff and then not want to go back. Maybe this is similar... Sometimes it feels invasive somehow, like he has crawled into my head. Hard to explain.

I understand feeling protective about your time slot. I think I feel pretty protective about mine too. I'm sick today. I emailed t and asked if we could have a phone session instead. Will see how that goes... I couldn't bear the thought of him seeing someone else in my regular time.