Yesterday I was busy throughout the whole day. I was feeling alright when I first started cleaning but then my mood sunk. Plus it was a hot and humid day for doing it. Later in the morning my sister called but just left a message. That sunk me down further. I though I had made it clear to her that I don't want to do the phone calls anymore. It's because she's too upsetting and we've been arguing a lot. I didn't call back and I feel guilty about it. It's hard for me to make the call especially when I had already told her I don't want to do the phone calls.

I'm anxious about my trip coming up in a couple of weeks. I'm taking this trip so that I can scout out the place to see if I want to move there. I feel depressed that I have to move out where I am now. For me I think that Buffy's therapist nailed it about "living in the past and worrying about the future". Oh, that's me right now!