(((((((( jasie )))))))))))
I have pieces of memories of things in my childhood and teen years that don't quite fit together or are so distant that I can't really place them to one specific situation. I've found through the years that every now and again something else will pop into my mind and it's like another piece of the puzzle. I've never done emdr nor have I had therapy for these issues.
I can well imagine how scary it must be for you when nothing seems to quite make sense and there is a fear of not understanding things or maybe not even wanting to know but the memories come bit by bit anyways.
I don't think that quitting therapy is the right thing to do. At least while in therapy, if/when something comes up that is really difficult for you, you have someone to go to for help with it. We tend to fear the unknown...and to have someone in your corner that knows how to help you work through it is paramount to healing.
I hope you can find some peace and work through the fear with your T. It's not going to happen overnight, that's for sure, but with the right guidance...you can heal. I wish you well!

sabby