Aww.
1. I don't think you're a mess. I think life and healing is messy. But not you yourself.
2. My guess is that all of us are better now than in the past. Least that's the hope, right?

That's at least has been my goal especially with therapy: to learn and heal and grow.

I was a handful in my past too. Look at how I was when I first started here! I was judgmental and confrontational. Definitely naive. And I still am sometimes. But I've also grown a lot learning from you all and therapy and just experiencing life.

I think you've made huge strides, Artie! You seem more confident and self-aware. I look up to you and many of the members here.