@stahrgeyzer, you are not alone, not at all! Some of us feel & experience these same kinds of puzzles, bewilderments. I'm beginning to see how the brain is a much more huge thing than most of the so-called experts have any clue about. At least we keep exploring, realizing that everything is so much more than they are willing to open their minds to. Let's keep wondering, trying to understand for others out there like us!