Thank you, everyone.

It’s that I knew these things already about him when we separated the first time. Then I allowed him to sweet talk me and manipulate me, which is exactly what he did. He didn’t put effort into therapy. He didn’t want to work on himself for real. He just said those things to win me back over and I bought it all - hook line and sinker. I feel foolish for having fed into and for believing his manipulative empty promises and lies.

And yes, perhaps I’ve grown stronger and can now actually end it for good. Maybe I was too vulnerable before to let go fully.

I still feel very foolish.