Hi Hope,
I just wanted to sign on and check in how you're doing.
I've really appreciated your, and others, insight and support and wanted to offer some in turn.
Be kind to yourself. Ok? Your mind and heart must be so tortured. When you can find some quiet in your mind, ask yourself how harshly you'd judge someone else in your position.
I bet you'd be pretty understanding. Try to give yourself the same support and understanding when you can.
We're all just human. All we can try to do is be a good human, but we all make mistakes.
You've been beaten down so much, try not to add to it. You'll need your strength moving forward. Don't let your own self talk wear you down and exhaust you.
RDM