Thanks for your response, I didn't even know I had any replies to this thread. To be honest, after all I've been through and all the pain I'm still experiencing I have given up on finding a new family or even friends. I feel like I don't have any needs or am not allowed to have any for lack of a better term. Everything I believe in has been destroyed, all my dreams have been destroyed, all my relationships with others have been ruined, and every day gets worse for me. I don't have much hope at all because nearly everyone has treated me the same more or less.

I feel like I have never been allowed to live my life or even be a human being. I am expected to be a soulless, emotionless, robotic, mindless being and I just can't do that. I have tried to be open with others but all I get met with is a cold, heartless attitude. I am done trying to help others or even interact with them since it's obvious no one wants me to be around or thinks there's something wrong with me. I am tired of dealing with ignorant and arrogant people who are not even willing to listen to anything you have to say. A lot of people already have their minds made up and I don't feel like wasting my time anymore.

I have tried to be as kind and nice of a person as possible and it got me absolutely nowhere. Instead, people have tried to take advantage of and exploit my good nature and I don't have any patience left. Every day gets worse for me but it doesn't matter because no one cares and no one is going to help me. That's all this place has taught me in addition to nothing I say or do ever matters. Great lessons to learn right? That's how nice people are around here. And if you try to point out that this fast-paced life is a stupid and idiotic way to live they stare at you like you have two heads. Like there are no other ways of living in which people would be happier. I just don't even know what to say anymore. All that's left to say is I'm done and I'm going back to sleeping because that's better than dealing with this twisted and dark reality.