I have in former days been treated for depression, with no specification of what kind (mild, moderate, stronger or whatever). Talking therapy.

This time I cannot afford to pay for a therapist. I bought a self-help book: "The Cognitive Behavioral Workbook for Depression" from Amazon. At first I felt sure that this could be the help I needed and felt some sort of relief.

Now I feel like I am trapped in hopelessness! I know that I have to focus my thoughts on something different according to what I have learned from CBT and so I will, but I find it a bit difficult for the moment.

I have to add (some time after I wrote the former today). I have no idea how to get out of this, either economically or emotionally. I ended up with ordering an appointment with a therapist. May be the most important is to get somebody to talk to. It doesn't have to be so many hours.