The oxygen supply to my brain is better and the physical pain is much less. So I am definitely better. But I am getting a series of several mild to moderate panic attacks throughout the day.

Strangely these panic attacks make me feel very very lonely and make me want to return to USA desperately. I hope I pray that I can go back to USA some day soon. I have so many dreams which I can't fulfill here in India as I am always sick here. The doctors here can't help me beyond prescribing me psych meds(which make me groggy and fat and slow) and antibiotics and antihistamines.

Please God make my wish come true. I have been waiting and waiting to hear from the usa government....please make it happen this time. I have spent the best productive years of my youth(22 y.o. to 30 y.o.) in India just doing nothing as I was very sick. I am still sick.

Please help me God.