Ever since I found out about my elevated breast cancer risk sleeping has been hard. I seem to have 2 nights of little sleep followed by a night I sleep soundly. Tonight I fell asleep about 12:30 and woke at 2. It's now 3 and I'm wide awake and kind of agitated.


The problem is that I'm tired. I know you all know but oh, so tired. I'm taking my PRNs but they aren't doing a great job and I can't bug my pdoc any more than I have already as she's out with COVID and I feel terrible that I contacted her at all (although not my fault, just I NEED her to sign something and fax it in to be able to get my clozaril and she's not been in the office to do it and I could tell she was feeling the pressure of knowing I need this done so my prescription is filled on time.

I guess I am going to try to read. I don't know if I can or not but I'm going to try. I feel like I did in the hospital once when I just couldn't sleep and every time they came in I just said "hi!" over and over. That did lead to them getting me some ambien.

Hope everyone is sleeping soundly.