My day has barely gotten started as of right now. I woke up this morning and kept thinking I should cancel my trip (just like I did last year!). It's like why should I go there? It's going to cost money for the trip and then if I decide to move to that place, then it might not be as beneficial as I think it could. On the other hand, my money is definitely going to run out if I stay unless if I could get financial help of some kind. At where I live, there are thousands applying for financial help and there's not enough money to help everyone who requests. My only friend, who is not a great quality person, thinks I shouldn't do this. He hasn't offered or come up with any kind of help.

At where I live the amenities are great and probably much better than where I'm going to move to. There's not much greatness in people at where I am. I hardly have any friends and I feel like the people surrounding me do not think the same way I do. It's been that way for a long time and I don't see that part getting better anytime soon. My neighbors are not friendly and I feel like I try to be nice to others.

I guess it's just a fear of failure on my part, I don't know.