I am glad I decided to become a member here. It is good to have a place to be some kind of anonymous, behind a nick-name where people in the real world cannot identify you.

I have come to the conclusion that I self-sabotage in some ways (If I told my friends in the real world about my discovery, they would have thought that I was mad). It's a bit scary, but at least I am on the waiting list for a CBT therapist. I read some articles online that tells that self-sabotaging can be treated the same way as other behavior.

That gives me hope.