Geez, you and sqrl sound like you are doing as well as can be expected. I'm not, by far. No energy or desire anymore to even bother. I know that what I really want in life will never happen so I just don't see the point to the fight anymore. Constant pain and heartbreak is all I ever feel and I don't want to feel them anymore. I've given up and given in. It's just not worth the fight for something that'll never happen. There's just no point.