I have more to say this day. I have had an appointment with an eye doctor. My eyes are generally fine. I am only to use eye drops for one week.

With regard to my psychological health I have remembered that all is not about my depression, but about my anxiety as well and the self-sabotage I mentioned in my last post (may be more). I don't care as long as it is treatable. I am glad that I am able to find out as much as possible before I meet my CBT therapist.

CBT is not, as probably some of you know already, a therapy where the therapist is going to cure you. Instead it is about looking about how the client (I don't think they use the label 'patient') uses the tools to see the links between THINKING - FEELINGS - BEHAVIOUR and the other way around and then tries to make new nerve pathways in the brain between new thinking patterns and new behavior. One trains to become ones own therapist so to speak. When behavior and thinking changes, emotions will do so as well. One does the change gradually (therapist and client find the best tools for presented problems together) before the patient starts to move on and uses the new tools on her/his own without the therapist. It can seem as a quick fix, but it is a lot of work to do along the road.

I do look forward too start the therapy.

(Sorry for ranting. I am not trying to disqualify other methods that therapists can use. I am only sharing that for me this is probably the best I can do for myself for the time being).